lets make a trade.

and my happiness is like a teeter-totter. some days i'm up, most days i'm down. i can't help but blame these unconsistent moods on you. i don't know if i'm in love with you, or who you used to be. i feel terrible almost all of the time. when i read the things she writes, about you, and the times you two spend together. my heart drops, my eyes water, and confusion takes over my mind. why do you have this affect on me? i used to be so strong, my who-cares attitude saved me. it was a shield against vulnerability's pointy spears. then you came along and i was forever changed. i don't know why god put you in my life if all you were going to do is break me. i was already broken by the time you came along, i didn't need to be shattered anymore. but you don't care, you say you do, but obviously people can lie. that's all you've been doing. lets make a trade, you give me my heart, time, virginity back and i'll give you all the memories of you. sounds fair right? yeah, matt, i thought so too.

- love always, jenn.