"girlfriend...she's, she's your girlfriend?" her brown eyes fill with tears and her voice shakes with disbelief. "no, no, no, see she can't be, because i love you, i loved you first dammnit!" she screams at him. all he can do is stare and nod his head. "why? why come into my life if all you're going to do is fucking ruin it! i thought i meant something to you...i thought, i thought if i kept trying and kept pushing, that you would be mine in the end. say something!" he moves forward and tries to grab her hand, "i didn't say touch me, i said say something!" he steps back and says, "i told you a long time ago...but you wouldn't let go." her sadness turns to rage. "oh so this is my fault? ha, my fucking bad for loving you so damn much. my fault for believing in you that you could change. shit, do you know what i went through for you? how much i suffered for you? yeah, bet you don't...you never took the time too." tears stream down her face and she continues, "so i hope you're happy. i hope ya'll fall in love, and hell, i hope the rumors are true, i hope she is pregnant with your baby. and you know what? i hope when you're infinitely happy and you don't think things can get any better, you think of me. and then all that happiness and perfection crashes down like a cold wave around you, and you don't know who you love more. her or me. and you know what? we both know what that answer will be, it'll be me. you wanna know why? cause no one can or has loved you as much as i fucking did. no one's stupid enough too..."
- love always, jenn.
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