I met you, I loved you, I'm over you. So someone new is in the picture, and for the first time since you've been gone, I can see myself with someone. My very own G.I. I frustrate him, he frustrates me. But, he hasn't given up on me yet and we both know the two and a half months of his basic camp is going to be anything but easy for the both of us. I have no idea what to do though, can I really be committed to someone I've barely even met? Him being good to me is an understatement. I've never had a guy try THIS hard just to talk to me. I'm nervous, about it all. What if he changes when we're finally able to see one another? I'd have wasted all that time on something that didn't even work out. I don't remember how tall he was, everyone tells me he's shorter than me...which I'm sorry if this is shallow, is not okay. Oh, and on top of all of this, Ancel's back from rehab. Sorry for the flutters, heart. But he just does that to me. I'm such a messed up person when it comes to relationship and boys. I see girls that guys actually find dateable and I ask myself "okay well what about me?" On top of all of this, I've really stopped caring about a lot of things. Like school, I know that's awful. But I feel like what I'm supposed to be doing with my life is outside of academics. Yes, I'm not a moron but I want to do something that makes people happy and feel good about themselves. Algebra, physics, history - those give people headaches or at least they give me headaches. I just want to graduate and start cosmetology school already. I'm done with this small town and high school boys. I want my boy to come down to me already so I can see if he really is worth all this waiting. Does every girl go through ruts like this?